I have simply decided to take a hiatus from my own personal life. Until I figure out what I want out of life – I will not be happy. Looking back at my 3 relationships, everyone wanted something different. Shannon wanted to try something new – me. Taneshia wanted a continuous hook-up – me. Ana wants a husband – the verdict is still out on that one. One thing is for certain; I have tried to be consistent with everyone. I try to be genuine, reliable, resourceful, and loving. Hint: PLEASE catch the “try to be” in the last sentence. I believe that I do ok – I mean, please keep in mind that I am human.
Zo on Wisdom: It is 2011. I will be 25 years old in October. I cannot believe how fast the time has flown. I believe that I have matured a lot, but I have so far to go. As quoted by one of my good friends a few weeks ago, “Baby, you haven’t lived until you turn 30. You’ll see the whole world in a different light.” I love those words of wisdom, but I do not believe that I can wait 5 years and 8 months to live. I want it NOW! I’ll continue to pray on that.
Zo on Success: “Success is measured by your happiness and your abilities to overcome opposition.” If you are a recovering addict and you have been promoted to shift manager at McDonald’s and you are happy about it – Congratulations on your success. Let no man stand in between you and your happiness. Several times many of us are too caught up in what is socially acceptable. I say do you and love it. I love the fact that the simple things in life humble me. If I were to take all of my successes and lay them side-by-side to all of my defeats – I would not be disappointed one bit. Why? If it were not for the defeats in life, how would I recognize the victories of my successes? I simply wouldn’t. I come from a place where your street credit measures your masculinity and having 3 bastard children by 3 different women says that you are a player. In that, measure your success by your own standard – no one else’s.
Zo on Zo: Sometimes people say that they are their worst critics. I believe that I am. I push myself harder than anyone I know. My mother, my rock, my pillar of strength pushes me as well. She knows what I am capable of, but to her, she sees a strong willed, intelligent, God fearing man with endless possibilities and that’s it. While I see that as well, I am more caught up on the opportunities for improvement. I am no longer an advocate for correcting an error before I make the mistake, but I am for realizing the error to prevent it from happening again. I will no longer make allowances for my shortcomings of make excuses. Zo will work harder on Zo. If I loose friends, relationships, and etc along the line – then so be it. It is what it is.