The Experience

Have you every been in a crowded room and suddenly you felt as if you were the only person there? It initially it bothered me, but now I realize that I am different. I am the darker brother that Denzel spoke of in The Great Debaters. I'm completely ok with it. This is the truth that many of them won't speak of and dare not mention. Many would say, ""this is 2010, y'all should get over that - let's move on." My response - "How can we?" I think that the Winter is the most depressing time of the year for me. The weather is usually not its best, it's cold, usually cloudy, and many often find themselves thinking of seasons long past. It's funny how quickly one's life can change. It could be as simple as 1. 2. 3. I still remember winter of 2004. I was 18, still handsome and from what I remember, or in my mother's words - starting to really smell myself. That last winter of my childhood. I remember my father telling me that I was in fo...

After a long days work, one would run to the nearest liquor store to grab a 1/2 pint of the cheapest gin available and drink it until the last drop is drank. Tired moments - let me not go there, but instead I find a safe haven in a little coffee house just around the block from my apartment. The coffee is some of the best brewed in town. The people are friendly and they give you permission to stay as long as you want with no cover charge. If the music was a little better, I'd be willing to pay to sit and let my mind flow. I just finished another chapter of my book. I'm not saying that when I'm done with this book it's going to be a best seller, but I will say that it is truly hard work. My main character, Wayne has been through a lot these last two years. He's matured since I first developed this character. His attitude and outlook on life is constant - but he's really matured. Hopefully, we'll have a ending within the months to come. Winter is here! The cit...

Have you ever been to that place where the drinks are cheap and the party is jumping? Or have you been to the place where there is only one bathroom for men and women and the line is usually longer than the line at the bar? Well I've found that place right here in downtown Macon. Its became an every Friday night hot spot. We arrive, there's usually only one or two seats left. The waitresses bring you a few cups of your favorite troubling beverage for tips and there's ALWAYS a live band. The band serenades you with that good old school. Denise LaSalle, Clarence Carter, Johnny Taylor, Earth-Wind-And-Fire, are not uncommon in this place. The live band makes it that much more spectacular. Not to mention uncle Remus and his polyester gold suits and the matching hat. Aunt Debra and her new husband and her bottomless cup of Long Island ICE teas! If you missed that, maybe you'll see the other black souls full of anticipation seeking something more than what they've receiv...

There must be a chemical imbalance in the stew today. I woke up today - like any other day. My mind was not on it's usual focal point. I was more interesting in the things that I had no control over like the poverty of Middle Georgia than the things that I did - like planning my day or cooking a little breakfast. Sitting at my kitchen table, I wrote in my book today. Just some random thoughts towards one of back chapters. I don't know exactly where they'll fit or if they'll. All I know is that they were thoughts that needed to be expressed. I got a letter in the mail today. It was from a shadow of my past. It was a letter of ill intent - but like dust in a windy field, I let it blow. I'm not concerned with anyone or anything that are not to my good. If your intent isn't with love and prosperity - Fuck off because you're not welcomed here. "You stupid son of a bitch," says an angry shopper this morning. Black Friday - an annual event that pulls spe...

Some people work their entire lives in search of their passion. Some find it and some done. Last night, like any other friday night - I went to the hole in the wall in downtown Macon, Georgia. As usual, I had no expectations as to what was to come or how my night was going to end. I don't remember the name of the band nor the host. I do however remember the music. They were singing so of my all time favorites. I heard a little Etta James - At last, Aretha Franklin - Chain of Fools, and many more. I had about 4 Georgia Peach Teas - I was feeling right. A friend of mine, Tamika, wanted to go to the TicToc room, but as I rode by the joint - I couldn't possibly see myself having a good time there. I did however want to chill with Tamika. Tamika is a naturalist, she's 30, fair complexion, full figured, and drop dead gorgeous. So I pressed forward. My destination - the hole in the wall. I send Tamika a text telling her that I would be at the hole in the wall and that after leavin...