Sitting on the Dock of the bay

Sitting on the Dock of the Bay

It never ceases to amaze me how well I have transitioned into my own. I have grown into what I regard as a respectable young man. I do not steal. I am a hard worker. I do not cheat and to my knowledge I am the definition of what a positive contributor to society should be. IF all of the above is true - why do I find myself so empty sometimes?

I have done a few analysis as to why this is so. I do not get a strong opportunity to think. I spend so much time focusing on things that are irrelevant. My job gets a good bulk of my attention. Being a new professional, I am in a phase of molding. Not only as an individual, but as a man as well.

I am yet single. I have had my share of positive people in my life, but greed has detoured me from making that next step. I have even been on the verge of proposal. Some call it cold feet, I call it differences of opinion. It would be easy if I saw a perfect picture of a relationship. I have not.

On this day, I was just sitting on the dock of the bay and I realized all of the mistakes that I have made in my life. I really had the opportunity to think about all of the people that I have hurt and all of the people that I was dishonest with in my life. I know that it was wrong. I was just young, simple, and stupid.

Consider this as my formal apology. If I have ever hurt you in any way - I'm sorry.

Zo

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