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I have not posted in over 2 years. My oh my how things have changed. i found that wife that I wrote about. I made a family with that wife. From that marriage, my first born daughter is here. I am imperfect, but I am making positive strides to better myself. I guess before I get into where I am today, I have to go back to where I was...

2016: I had moved into a less expensive apartment on the fashionable side of town, because during this time I still had an image that I had to keep up appearances. I left a job making almost $60,000 a year in search of passion. I wanted to something that would fulfill me. Complete me. Motivate me to get up and go to work in the mornings. The constant thing in my life, more than relationships was college. I had been an on again/ off again student for years. In May, I completed my bachelor's degree in Business. I didn't quite know what I wanted to do with it, but I had an idea.

College life: I decided accept a part-time job at a local community college. Sure, it was table scarps compared to what I was making, but it provided me with a sense of "purpose." It was different than what I was used to, so I gave it my all. Within 2 months, I was promoted to Assistant Director. I had more job responsibilities than others at the same level. Things were great. My director believed in my mission and my worth ethic. She gave me opportunities to be in the spotlight and I maximized.

Love: For the rest of 2016, I spent trying to repair what was left of my so-called marriage, establish myself in my new career, redefine who i was in the fraternity, and be a good dad to my son.

2017: The new year came and went. The ladder part of 2016 came with much upset as the nation elected its first CLOWN and CHIEF to hold the highest office in these United States. The struggle of Black Americans was amplified even more with the constant accounts of police brutality in the media. It encourages us to stay in versus go out. One of the worse places for a black man is the United States of America.

I could say more, but I think this is a good stoping point for now.


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