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I decided

I Decided. 

Decided to live my life and find me a wife cause this rigorous day-to-day just to try to pay bills can't be life. 

I decided that I want to be a good man. Even a better husband to raise my 3 kids and show them that daddy loves you and he'll never leave. 

Which is better than anything my pops ever did for me cause he was gone by the time I was three. Occasional visits, we'd watch TV, but never an I love you, so you see why I don't trust me. 

I hold on really tight and fear that I may loose me. I look in the mirror and see that I resemble this man and I never want that to be me and I never want my kids see him when they see me. 

I want to their hero. Encourage them as they grow. The one who encourages, teaches, disciplined and looks out for!

There's nothing more special than hearing your son say thanks dad, you're the greatest". 

I guess when he starts talking, only then will I have made it.

I decided! 


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